For fuck sake the fucking garbage is taken out you don’t have to throw any more shit. FUUUUCKKK
I legitamitly hate it when my dad gets in these fuck head moods. Randomly he gets pissed and throws shit. Go the fuck away! I can’t stand it, you are fucking Bi-polar you shit head! No it is not normal to change moods in 2.5 seconds. Go get some fucking meds! I have gone 12 years with throwing shit, being put down, emotionally abused, felt like being thrown away and scared. I am tired of this shit, I thought you no longer drinking alcohol would make things a fuck ton better but no, I still feel like a little kid!
Things are getting better, I am less irritable and feel a little more calm. Yet I am a little on edge One thing though that I feel horrible about is liking someone. I haven’t liked anyone in what seems to have been a while, the only catch is that he was with one of my close friends. But fuck why does this happen? I feel so bad for liking the kid because I shouldn’t I should be a better friend. asdfghjkl! I am beyond mad at myself ! Comment if you wish.
Some days I want to fucking cut again… I have no way of handling my emotions but bottling them inside. Then eventually I want to explode. It is like a soda bottle, after bottling things in everything gets shook up and pressure is created and that is when I want to explode. Everything makes me mad, everything and everyone. In a way I feel like everyone is leaving me, even my own dog. ): I know it sounds pathetic but with all this shit going on at home and going off of my medication I have no idea what I am supposed to do. I want to sleep and be alone all the time.